How I feel about David

Sudden Light

I have been here before,
But when or how I cannot tell:
I know the grass beyond the door,
The sweet keen smell,
The sighing sound, the lights around the shore.

You have been mine before,—
How long ago I may not know:
But just when at that swallow's soar
Your neck turned so,
Some veil did fall,—I knew it all of yore.

Has this been thus before?
And shall not thus time's eddying flight
Still with our lives our love restore
In death's despite,
And day and night yield one delight once more?

by Dante Gabriel Rossetti (1828-1882)

On Barthes

Ideas are fed to me.
Opinions that were supposedly thought out.
Concepts from theorists
Making sense of this world.
And now I must glean reason
From their (non)sense.

I muddle through.
Faking it
While self-aware youngsters prattle on
In comprehension.
My brain has been sleeping for
Ten years.

Comatose. Entertained by pop culture.
I am a derivative of idiocy-
A product of my culture.
Oh! intelligent brain of my youth,
I have let you fester in a
Quiet pocket of reality TV infection.

I am shocked awake by
Electrodes of thought.
Synapses connect,
Bulbs of deeply buried ideas
Light up the mushy grey.

Four weeks in
And there is hope.

8-31-10 & 9-21-10

this was written for my frustration about a French theorist from the 40s, Roland Barthes. Read his stuff, you'll see.

my poem--I found this & love it!

Louisa

By William Wordsworth


After accompanying her on a mountain excursion.

Written at Town-end, Grasmere.

I met Louisa in the shade,
And, having seen that lovely Maid,
Why should I fear to say
That, nymph-like, she is fleet and strong,
And down the rocks can leap along
Like rivulets in May?

She loves her fire, her cottage-home;
Yet o'er the moorland will she roam
In weather rough and bleak;
And, when against the wind she strains,
Oh! might I kiss the mountain rains
That sparkle on her cheek.

Take all that's mine beneath the moon,
If I with her but half a noon
May sit beneath the walls
Of some old cave, or mossy nook,
When up she winds along the brook
To hunt the waterfalls.

all that glitters is usually cheap crap unless you're rich

Ok so the title will possibly make sense once you're done reading this entry but probably not. I have found that, much to my embarrassment, I love trashy reality TV. I always have wanted to be one of those "smart" TV watchers. You know the ones: "I only watch TV for educational purposes. I watch Discovery & the Earth series & spend my summers with the Peace Corps.". Ya know, dorks. Jk. Not me! I happen to be involved with one of these dorks. David is now fascinated with the "Through the Wormhole" series about the Universe. Now, don't get me wrong, it's very exciting learning about quarks & strange matter & how the Earth could be eaten inside out by a black hole the size of a pearl. (yawn). But I'd rather watch bitchy women yell & fight on "Real Housewives of NYC" or as my friend Kelly & I affectionately call "The Bitches of Madison County".
I found a new treasure yesterday. "You're Cut Off" chronicles ten pampered, rich-bc -mommy/daddy/hubby-are-rich women get cut off from their families to learn what it's like to live like the upper class. No, not the middle or lower class, the upper. So they go from the top 1% to the top 5%. How tragic. They had to clean their mansion, they had to cook their own meals, they had to figure out how to open & turn on a computer! Seriously! How is it that we still have people like this? My favorite part was when an "expert" told one of the girls that her $2,000 Louis Vuitton clutch was someone's house payment & he got blank stares. "What's that? (giggle vacantly) "Where are the maids?" I'm fascinated with their stupidity & yet disgusted with myself all at the same time. So, even though that glittery diamond tiara one girl was wearing might be worth thousands, it's just calling attention to the cheap crap underneath it. I vote she takes it off & I watch Jersey Shore. : )
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My favorites

So far my favorite things since I've been eating healthy are:
Celery sticks with hummus or peanut butter.
Silk brand soy milk. (especially chocolate).
Spanish Rice-a-Roni with black beans & chipotle peppers.
Uncle Eddie's Vegan Cookies (these are very easy to pig out on & I'm working on portion sizes too so they aren't in the house too much) : (
Organic "Oreos". (same rule as above applies)
Wheat meat as ground meat in dishes or as meat balls for spaghetti. (still gotta get the brown pasta)
Veggie burgers dressed up like a hamburger (way more flavor & lighter feeling than beef)
A wheat protein called seitan with Chinese style stir fry (pronounced say-tan & yes I've already thought of the irony that it sounds like Satan. Lol. It tastes like chicken. Honest! Can Satan say that? : )
Knowing that I have saved several animals lives & preserved resources! Good feeling!
Knowing David supports me & Sage is vegetarian now bc of my example-excellent! Even Graham likes the vegan food!
Now go enjoy one of these treats!
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come with me...and you'll be...in a world of pure imagination (or just a vegan world)

So I figure I'll just let you guys know more about my journey into the vegan world. So far, so good. I'm learning about the wonderful world of whole grains and plants. I'm relearning to eat! It's crazy. I have been so ignorant about the delightful world of actual food, not processed, refined, and enriched (put chemicals back in since we took all the good stuff out) "food". For lunch I ate yummy Spanish rice with black beans, a raw carrot!, and corn on the cob (without the butter and salt!) Now for those of you who know me this is huge! I was a sugar fiend. But sugar turns me into a b****. The other day I ate some delicious crab cream cheese wontons (I caved) and within an hour I was so angry it was scary! So...even though I still crave that white powder, I know better than to indulge. If any of you have thought about going vegan, check out the book "The Kind Diet" by Alicia Silverstone (or her website for free-yay!-www.thekindlife.com. Yes, that's the girl from Clueless, which I think is so cool because I have loved her ever since that silly movie. She has really good information and guides you step-by-step as you take the plunge. Anywho, I am happy to say that I really don't miss any meat or dairy (sugar is still tough) and I am becoming friends again with fruits, veggies, grains, and yes, even the gassy bean family. =)
Til next time,
Lou

been a while

So I always do this. Leave for a while, then come back. Kind of like my life. It goes in spurts and phases of different interests. The summer has been interesting. David's two kids have been here. Sage is 10 & Graham is 9 on Thursday. I have never had children living with me and it has been a hard adjustment. And, just like I thought, as I'm finally getting used to it, they are going back. Well in a month, but still. Four weeks isn't very long. Hope all of you have been well. I'm sure I'll talk to you again soon. =)